No Tittle

I actually write this poem to this special person but as what
she feels it is not enough to be called as sonnet. It lacks few
lines to be called as a sonnet

Years proceed bestowed ones age
Proof to endure so firm thou stand
Thy feet took steps thee stance in land
Time proceed not ever in mind

For seasons advanced, run so blind
Lift oneself up don't fall behind
Such strong person thou lives inside
Let it go, let it break the line

I stopped for a few minutes after writing this poem in a piece of paper. It is just a simple gift, a simple gift for a special person. However time and the universe give enough reason for me to judge her from top to toe, i mean from bottom and on the top of her personality. Not entirely, but the pieces of the ideas makes one firm judgement, a rational judgement that the person whom i expected more to understand a "weird" personality is a lies.

Maybe the chances brought me on that point where i have to think if she is good enough for me, or she is just immature enough to be judge accordingly. There are a lot of things, maybe a lot of speculation around that situation of mine mostly negative. Expectation didn't kill it is the feeling of letting go a person that you're attached as you write this creepy novels and poems only dedicated for her.

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Taking Chances

There are only two options, one take that chance and
explore the possibilities beyond or two run away and have
your own life, nothing change, nothing to happen.

Personal Chances in our decision in Life

Not all things comes randomly, there is a pattern we just didn't know it how it goes. And there are times when this "things" comes to us either it is unexpectedly or unintentional , and that is we called  chances. The chances which can be a turnout in such events of your life, or can change what you expected in the future, or change the way how you think about the things in life. The possibilities are endless beyond that certain chances that pops out in the universe, we can look at that or just leave it there-ignored.

This chances comes in a great reason to throw you back in the line but there are chances that can drive you off that trail. That "Negative" Chances that cross in every human's life makes a fear inside us that can entirely throw us off that path and make us in a place where we are not moving at all, with no direction you're just standing there all day or worst until you die. Fear can be the barrier in having a good life, we are all in great fear of the new things that makes us to be left behind the trails of the others. We're afraid of it knowing that we would be lost in that "New Things" where we can have no direction at all. However such negativism of thoughts will make you idle in one point with no progress as you walk on that trail of yours heading on that direction that you've dreamed of. Fear will break you down and hinders you from the possibilities of doing things better than what you do things right now.

There are a lot of chances, a lot of chances that we missed and lost forever. Some of them comes back, some of them comes again and again, and some of them stays for little time until they're gone. However there is no assurance if such chances will come out again so better grab it when it is hot before it becomes cold and useless. Every Chances have its own consequences but if we look at that consequences rather than the possibility of taking that chances into action, we may found ourself in fear and in boredom of life

Giving Chances to others

Chances didn't come up in the mid-air without anyone placing it right there. There are events that may throw you in the situation in which you will choose if that chances in front of you will be better or worse to your side. As i said, things didn't come randomly- we can understand it in better view using the Chaos Pattern. Anyway, giving chances to the others is optional to your side, you can create a kind of chance to this kind of person or to that kind of person it is upon your consent.

Some of us deprives other people right to be given a chances which makes a border between Psychological aspects in socializing or interacting between two individuals. Either it is cause by fear because we experience such thing in the past or just a fear in nothing (we don't have a clue on the consequences or any idea what will happen aftermath). Whatever the reason is, giving a chance to someone is giving yourself a huge possibilities in life. However, giving a chance is not a simply thing like giving a lolipop or a yellow cab pizza to the poor, we need to be rational in our excuses that define our decision upon that situation. Ask yourself if your decision is rational enough to answer all of your question, if not, then it is not rational according to your idea. Not because you feel bad about it, it makes a firm foundation that you're rational on your decision.

Most of the people dares not to think rationally because it consumes a lot of time, they could have spend it to their pleasures to fulfill their satisfaction. Their mindset are like "Oh i have this feeling, i'm not doing that" feeling is not a good basis of decision. Why? because feeling is not constant (More if you're so irrational in thinking, better not base all the things to feelings), you sometimes feel wrong but you think you're happy, we misjudge our own feelings, how can that be so trustworthy? They sometimes head on giving chances to the wrong person and hoping for the best that their expectations will come to reality. It is the main reason why a person give a chance to a wrong person, because they know what will happen even though it is irrational basis in giving someone a chance.

Chances carry a lot of possibilities, we may have some clue in it but the consequences beyond that are endless (you can choose anything from it) more than our expectations. It is a countless chances that may lead you to another chances that can open another door for you. Life knowing what is the outcome of the effort is a life with no thrill and adventure. We may taking some wrong chances, but please don't make it stop you from taking Chances again, learn from it don't let the fear hinders you.

Life is an endless possibilities you just need to explore and look for the better life that you can say it is "Uniquely yours"

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The Real Loss Is To Love Someone More than Yourself

You need an arms to throw away all of the bad luck beneath

If you ever remember or watched that 1996 film of Matt Damon together with Ben Affleck the title may sound very familiar to you. I get that phrase on the movie Good Will Hunting which gives a lot of shit if you listen carefully. When you feel such love, the thing what some of the bookish person i meet refer as "Spark" (I didn't ever feel such thing, except during the summer days--rushing in the fully air-conditioned 7eleven store and accidentally touching your friend's skin) it is the most unexplainable thing and surreal feeling that a man may ever feel. In the point when you feel immobilize, can't move, can't even speak well and your mind seems too numb to think what will you do on that point. Such feeling is unmeasurable, it is like a lightning that strikes you down the sky-it comes so quickly that you didn't have enough time to escape from it either throw it away and hide from it. Such feeling is there when this special person of yours is right there besides you. A person that makes you feel important guy in a movie, a person that makes you feel happy and a person that seems like she is carrying a comforter in which you can rest and be comfortable anytime-anywhere you meet. She is there on the front doors when you feel bad about your family, when the society is against you and when all the things seems falling down you have no where to run, no where to hide and no place to cry like a baby and throw all of your emotions. When you're feeling sick she is there to lend you a hand and to care for you. Such examples make a strong emotional connnection between two people and as the time goes trust will make the foundation even stronger through the winds and storm on the way. To trust someone is the best gift that anyone can give and to receive-it is the best gift for marriage and for having a relationship.
For such a long time of trusting that person, that seems like she is part of yourself. A person that you want to be with at the end of the day and on the next day beside you as you start your another chapter of your life, a girl that you want to spend with you in lifetime. For a long time you feel that you love her more that yourself and she love you as what you love her-you're together for a long time and for a long years you've been on storm together, you get through it and survive in it. And when that person is lost, you can't do nothing but to see her to be taken away by God, the sense of real lost can only be felt if you learn to love someone more than you love yourself. That is the greatest lost of a man-to see someone to be taken away by fate, a simple but deepest thing that he will carry in the rest of his life.

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