Limang Segundong Forever

ANG LIMANG SEGUNDONG FOREVER

"Hindi sa haba yan sa laki masusukat kung gaano kasarap at totoo ang pagmamahal" Karamihan sa panahon natin binabase ang tunay na pagmamahal sa tagal ng pagsasama, pero kung sa panahon din naman ang sukatan ng tunay pagmamahal diyan kayo mabibilib sa katropa ko na itago natin sa pangalang V. Si V na mahilig magtago sa dilim, ayaw sa liwanag at ang tanging liwanag na gusto niyang makita ay ang liwanag mula sa monitor ng kompyuter, tech-geek kung baga. Siya si V na nakamaskara nakikita mong nakangiti pero sa kalooblooban niya wala kang maaaninag na kasiyahan. Isa siyang taong nabiktima ng lecheng forever ni Marcelo, kasi sa loob ng tatlong taon sa Sintang Paaralan iisang babae lang ang kanyang nagustuhan. Biruin mo, sa dinami dami ng isda nakabingwit siya ng Century Tuna Flakes n oil--"It's good for the heart" ika nga. Marami ngang babaeng magaganda sa loob ng Sintang Paaralan "Look to your left, look to your right and shake it all around and all you can say is Wow Philippines--the feeling is like It's More Fun in the Philippines". Kaya nga may PUP Thomism para makuhanan sila at Mang Tomas Code para masabing "Maganda sila" at "Worth it mahalin" Pero si V iba, loyal na loyal siya kay babae hindi at NEVER naging sila. Mas talo pa niya ang dalawang tao na masasabing may 'Sila' kasi kahit hindi naging sila nairaos niya ang pagmamahal niya kay babae w/in 3years. Itago natin si babae sa pangalang Angeliqe, kasi maganda siya at isa siyang Anghel na galing sa langit at napunta sa lupa. Para bang si Angelique ay isang 50gb Flash Drive na na-eject sa langit at nakita ni V at siempre lahat naman siguro matutuwa pag nakakita ng 50gb Flash Drive kahit hindi alam kung anong mayroon sa loob. Na-meet ni V si Angelique sa isang student org--Freshmen si V sa kae-evolve na course ni Poseidon at si Angelique naman ay sophomore sa pagbebenta ng cupcakes(ewan ko lang) 7 years ang tanda niya kay V(cat age). Itago na lang natin ang org na ito sa pangalang-Kubeta. Actually kasama ko siya na pumasok sa kubeta pero ako lang ang lumabas at naiwan siya sa loob. Nagustuhan niya ata dun kasi nakakita siya ng Anghel at siguro kala niya ang Kubeta ay isang langit. To make it short nagustuhan niya si Angelique pero that doesn't mean na gusto rin ni Angelique si V, ano sa tingin niyo forever ni Marcelo? "In your little monkey dreams" Simula noong sophomore nage-efort si V every ocassion para mapansin siya ni Angelique, may regalo siya sa Valentine's day, Sa birthday ni Angelique at sa araw na malakas ang sapi ni Pablo Picasso sa kanya. Yung regalo niya parang Oblation sa UP mapapa-wow ka sa laki ng ginagawa niyang sining, as in wow grabe "Hanep anak ah", effortful kung baga. Dahan-dahang ipinasok ni V sa buhay niya si Angelique, ni hindi man lang niya i-scan kung may virus si Angelique basta ang alam niya "It doesnt matter as long as it is a 50gb flash drive" Pero ngayong taon, sa loob ng 3 taon na naging parte ng buhay ni V si Angelique, dun niya nalaman na ang 50gb flash drive na ito ay may virus. Naghanda si V ng regalo para kay Angelique sa birthday niya, isang napakagandang gumagalwa na "Mother and child" ang surprise ni V. Naurong pa nga ang pagbigay niya dahil sa lecheng bagyo na iyan at dahil na din sa napakaspecial nung regalo kaya natagalan. Wala siyang matinong plano kaya heto kami, tinawag ang buong Barangay Laurel para backupan siya, isinama ko na din si Mang Tomas at Jason Bourne. Nagplano kami at hindi to maganda, napakaganda nito. Naka-standby na yung buong team ng PUP Thomism para sa lights&camera, andiyan na si Mang Tomas para makiusyoso, maayos na ang daan papuntang Jollibee, nakaset na ang oras ng 'Surprise', naka-standby na din ang mga mob dancers sa kanto, naghihintay na ang banda sa food court para tumogtog, parating na din ang lechon na galing sa La Loma, may banderitas na din at handa na ang lamesa at upuan para sa bisita, ayos na ang catering services, ayos na din yung Sound System at yung performers tulad ng Silent Sanctuary, Kamikaze at Tanya Markova. Pero sabi ko nga plano lang ang lahat, basta ibinigay na lang ni V yung "Mother and child" Epic fail yung plano ni V, tinangihan ni Angelique yung regalo. Hindi man daw pinansin, 4r4y q0h bh3. Yung kala mo Forever yun pala limang segundo lang. Hindi dahil nakalagay sa casing ng flash drive ay 50gb ay 50gb ba yun at hindi dahil sabi nung tindero ng chicharon na may "laman" ang tinitinda niyang chicharon eh may laman talaga yung chicharon. Saka lang nalaman ni V na may virus pala yung flash drive na iyon nung nagka-leche-leche na ang system niya, hindi lang pala virus, sa tagal na naka-connect eh nagkaroon nsa ng worm. Takte kahit yung mga kaklase niyang bukambibig ang "Understanding" di siya maintindihan. Walang tumulong na ayusin ang system niya, ayaw niya kasing magpaayos. Ngayon okay naman siya, parang si crush mukhang napaka-okay pero sabi ko yung mga taong ganito parang si V, nakangiti sa labas pero nakasimangot sa loob.

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The Fault in Men

There is no road sign in life roads. Life roads with sign isn't life roads but roads alone

We are in a journey with no precise destination and such destination can be found on the way while we walk on our path created either by our own or by others who orders us to walk and take that path instead of ours. Not just like on the roads, there are instructions, there are directions, there are routes, but in real life roads there is no such things as that. Signs ins't needed to guide us, either instructions how do drive safely, it is another way of killing our own freedom, our own unique destination and that is the fault in men.
They guide us not on the way of being liberal on our own thoughts but they guide us as if they controls our journey, they didn't know that, they just thought it wasn't like that. Probably if they see the fact about that. perhaps they may figure out that their mere existence are inevitable and they lived not on their own but in the minds of others. It is true that slavery works better without people knowing that they are. We are all slaves on the minds of the greater people who keep us under the sense of ignorance.
Since we are born people taught us that what is being given in the school will make us free from slavery and that the knowledge will make us liberal, a very unique individual in the crowd--probably most of you asked to be in the top class just to be a proof that you are different. But that isn't different at all, what makes someone different is to think that they are not different even knowing that they are.
The knowledge given in the school are knowledge not to set us free but to make us either to be in the crowd or to be differenrt.
If the school taught us to be liberal then probably we are not relying on the crowd, in the food given to us by the market, maybe we can find our own foods and look for alternatives rather than asking for such product from the capitalist, maybe we can make things without waiting, maybe we are all humans. The school taught us the ignorance of knowledge, we are numb in the real feelings, we are deaf in the music of silence but we blame all of these to others.
The fault of the men is that we keep ourselves in the open prison and convinces ourselves that the greatest place is right where we are and the school taught us to stop believing in fairytales, to search for something in the depths of darkness, to live deliberately in search of something significant.
The Fault in our stars is us.

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Ang Ampalaya

Karaniwang sinasabi ng mga bitter sa lovelife; "Mahihiwalay din kayo"

ANG MGA DAKILANG AMPALAYA

Pag ang babae mayaman
huwag mong iwanan
hindi dahil may panlibre
Dahil minahal mo siya, pare

Pero pag ika'y iniwan
Huwag mong iyakan
sama-sama nating tawanan
ang nangyaring kasawian

Maraming single dyan
Masaya at malaya
Pero karamihan sa kanila
ay nagpapaka-AMPALAYA

Napaka-bitter nila
Kaya sila AMPALAYA
"Putang-ina niya"
'Yan ang bukambibig nila

Maghihiwalay naman
hihintayin nalang
at saka siya aalagaan
para kanyang malaman
na siya ay nawalan
ng tunay na nagmamahal
sa puso niyang sugatan

Dahil kami AMPALAYA
malungkot pag wala siya
at ibang tao ang nagpapasaya
iba ang nagpapangiti sa kanya

Pero pag kami, malupit
parang isang inipit
masarap kahit naipit
nagmamahal kahit masakit
sa taong walang malasakit.

From: PUP Ampalaya Dead Poet

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Hopeless Romantic

The silence of the night keeps me awake
and to write this verse that I take
in every move that I break

Hopeless Romantic

The mirrors of her soul that shine
Wonderful as like in shore so fine
Its beauty concealed in a bliss
That makes I to smile so please.
Her sweet curve sets all straight
That i feel to change my trait.
Though I so fine thee something afraid,
That her hear in fear to laid.
Thy love which is lost in plead,
Nothing to give, nothing to lead
For she spend it to bleed.
Her soul hopes no love to feed.
Turn her mirror to look and to feel,
For she need cure for the wound to heal.

Dedicated to: Princess Angelique David
Feautured in :The Circular Catalog

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Sadness, a Chance to see What is Happiness

A typical country side sunset in the Philippines

To feel something odd is the best way to see better things in the most better way of looking at it. Though not all people can see such chances in life, for they're pre-occupied by the feelings and emotion. Emotion will never give something more important than a definition of feelings. The tragedy, the sadness, the oddness of things makes a clear view of looking on the opposite side where all of this things never exist.

There is a reason why we all fell in the pit of sadness, defeat and reasons to feel withdrawn in every situation. A reason comes always in two's that either we choose to look at it in the both side or ignore the other side to fully understand the true meaning of such reason. This two reason are the negative and the positive side, but it is actually us who makes a boderline of which is which and what is what in such ideas. We know this kind of "Positve" and "Negative" side as we grow up and define the things in life that is unanswered in our childhood. So it is easy for us to know which is which and what is what in just looking over it.

However as i said, we're pre-occupied by the sense of emotion that is brought by the situation. When we're happy, we manifest happiness, confidence and other kinds of "Positive" attitude that may send us in a better way of living and looking over our life's pathway. Positive growth and development of ones mind can be noticed and can be recognize. But when there is sadness, we're pre-occupied by the reasons and the emotion brought by the sadness.

What if we take this reason, the sadness, as a good chance of looking over the other side in a very optimistic way. For the drawbacks of the sadness will give you nothing but pain within oneself, but to see the other side and the sense of desire to go back there, enthusiastically, and to hold the things that makes ones happiness is the best thing to do.

Don't let the sadness comes to your heart and eat oneself, let it come for us to understand what is self when it lives in sadness and what is the importance if self lived in happiness

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On The Other Side

You will never learn to miss a thing without
enduring the meaning on the other way.
Photo taken : Napudot Road, Brgy. Kita-Kita, Balungao

ON THE OTHER SIDE

Let me call for sadness
For I shall know happiness,
Let the bitter come, be harness
For I to recognize sweetness,
Let the pain on my numbness
to let me feel be hopeless,
Let tragedy comes endless
for me to feel indulgeness.
For human will never learn,
the meaning of things we earn,
Not until comes opposite turn,
Meaning be realized in return.

This song is dedicated for the people who do not cares about the things that they have now on their possession. They sometimes or all of the times, disregard the thing that they have, ignore it instead of cherishing it. Things didn't come again and again and the importance of it will be recognized/ be realized in terms when it didn't exists at all.
It is simple thing, it is a simple idea--not all things exist forever, so make use of the time of its existance.

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Taking Chances

There are only two options, one take that chance and
explore the possibilities beyond or two run away and have
your own life, nothing change, nothing to happen.

Personal Chances in our decision in Life

Not all things comes randomly, there is a pattern we just didn't know it how it goes. And there are times when this "things" comes to us either it is unexpectedly or unintentional , and that is we called  chances. The chances which can be a turnout in such events of your life, or can change what you expected in the future, or change the way how you think about the things in life. The possibilities are endless beyond that certain chances that pops out in the universe, we can look at that or just leave it there-ignored.

This chances comes in a great reason to throw you back in the line but there are chances that can drive you off that trail. That "Negative" Chances that cross in every human's life makes a fear inside us that can entirely throw us off that path and make us in a place where we are not moving at all, with no direction you're just standing there all day or worst until you die. Fear can be the barrier in having a good life, we are all in great fear of the new things that makes us to be left behind the trails of the others. We're afraid of it knowing that we would be lost in that "New Things" where we can have no direction at all. However such negativism of thoughts will make you idle in one point with no progress as you walk on that trail of yours heading on that direction that you've dreamed of. Fear will break you down and hinders you from the possibilities of doing things better than what you do things right now.

There are a lot of chances, a lot of chances that we missed and lost forever. Some of them comes back, some of them comes again and again, and some of them stays for little time until they're gone. However there is no assurance if such chances will come out again so better grab it when it is hot before it becomes cold and useless. Every Chances have its own consequences but if we look at that consequences rather than the possibility of taking that chances into action, we may found ourself in fear and in boredom of life

Giving Chances to others

Chances didn't come up in the mid-air without anyone placing it right there. There are events that may throw you in the situation in which you will choose if that chances in front of you will be better or worse to your side. As i said, things didn't come randomly- we can understand it in better view using the Chaos Pattern. Anyway, giving chances to the others is optional to your side, you can create a kind of chance to this kind of person or to that kind of person it is upon your consent.

Some of us deprives other people right to be given a chances which makes a border between Psychological aspects in socializing or interacting between two individuals. Either it is cause by fear because we experience such thing in the past or just a fear in nothing (we don't have a clue on the consequences or any idea what will happen aftermath). Whatever the reason is, giving a chance to someone is giving yourself a huge possibilities in life. However, giving a chance is not a simply thing like giving a lolipop or a yellow cab pizza to the poor, we need to be rational in our excuses that define our decision upon that situation. Ask yourself if your decision is rational enough to answer all of your question, if not, then it is not rational according to your idea. Not because you feel bad about it, it makes a firm foundation that you're rational on your decision.

Most of the people dares not to think rationally because it consumes a lot of time, they could have spend it to their pleasures to fulfill their satisfaction. Their mindset are like "Oh i have this feeling, i'm not doing that" feeling is not a good basis of decision. Why? because feeling is not constant (More if you're so irrational in thinking, better not base all the things to feelings), you sometimes feel wrong but you think you're happy, we misjudge our own feelings, how can that be so trustworthy? They sometimes head on giving chances to the wrong person and hoping for the best that their expectations will come to reality. It is the main reason why a person give a chance to a wrong person, because they know what will happen even though it is irrational basis in giving someone a chance.

Chances carry a lot of possibilities, we may have some clue in it but the consequences beyond that are endless (you can choose anything from it) more than our expectations. It is a countless chances that may lead you to another chances that can open another door for you. Life knowing what is the outcome of the effort is a life with no thrill and adventure. We may taking some wrong chances, but please don't make it stop you from taking Chances again, learn from it don't let the fear hinders you.

Life is an endless possibilities you just need to explore and look for the better life that you can say it is "Uniquely yours"

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The Real Loss Is To Love Someone More than Yourself

You need an arms to throw away all of the bad luck beneath

If you ever remember or watched that 1996 film of Matt Damon together with Ben Affleck the title may sound very familiar to you. I get that phrase on the movie Good Will Hunting which gives a lot of shit if you listen carefully. When you feel such love, the thing what some of the bookish person i meet refer as "Spark" (I didn't ever feel such thing, except during the summer days--rushing in the fully air-conditioned 7eleven store and accidentally touching your friend's skin) it is the most unexplainable thing and surreal feeling that a man may ever feel. In the point when you feel immobilize, can't move, can't even speak well and your mind seems too numb to think what will you do on that point. Such feeling is unmeasurable, it is like a lightning that strikes you down the sky-it comes so quickly that you didn't have enough time to escape from it either throw it away and hide from it. Such feeling is there when this special person of yours is right there besides you. A person that makes you feel important guy in a movie, a person that makes you feel happy and a person that seems like she is carrying a comforter in which you can rest and be comfortable anytime-anywhere you meet. She is there on the front doors when you feel bad about your family, when the society is against you and when all the things seems falling down you have no where to run, no where to hide and no place to cry like a baby and throw all of your emotions. When you're feeling sick she is there to lend you a hand and to care for you. Such examples make a strong emotional connnection between two people and as the time goes trust will make the foundation even stronger through the winds and storm on the way. To trust someone is the best gift that anyone can give and to receive-it is the best gift for marriage and for having a relationship.
For such a long time of trusting that person, that seems like she is part of yourself. A person that you want to be with at the end of the day and on the next day beside you as you start your another chapter of your life, a girl that you want to spend with you in lifetime. For a long time you feel that you love her more that yourself and she love you as what you love her-you're together for a long time and for a long years you've been on storm together, you get through it and survive in it. And when that person is lost, you can't do nothing but to see her to be taken away by God, the sense of real lost can only be felt if you learn to love someone more than you love yourself. That is the greatest lost of a man-to see someone to be taken away by fate, a simple but deepest thing that he will carry in the rest of his life.

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The Real Story

Photo taken: Polytechnic University of the Philippines
-Santo Tomas, Batangas
(c) Jay San Juan
http://www.facebook.com/THEJAYSANJUAN

Movies, Novels, Short Stories and many other literature that carries a plot and lesson to be learn. Entertainment stuck us off boredom and exercise our own mind in constructing our own story, the real story that make this world ones of the most detailed story that you ever read in a paper, watched in theater and hear from your friends. This life are compilation of stories bonded together to make an outstanding timeline. It is wonderful to stand in the center of the crowd knowing that you're being part of their story. The story of their life, to be told or not to be told. Every second there is a agenda, objective to be apply, each subject have its reason, each action is unconsciously well-planned by each mind. However above from this greatness of the reality, we seek to more illusions for we know it is different. I shall tell you this, illusions is the same as the reality does, they walk in the same thread.
Most of us ignores the wonders of the world, because we cheaply see it. But when shall we feel it? when shall we realize it? Human start to stand on their own and ignores the others, human start to be self centered living in the world with a borders in each socialization.
The real story that we seek is on our own. We are the director, the writer and the producer of this story and it is upon us how to make is so wonderful for the next generation to read and to learn from it. If you like the story of what you see, what you hear of and what you feel, then if you like to be like that, be on your own control and hold the pen of your life. Write well, for there is no erasure or cuts in this show, the show of your own life. One mistake will be there, it is soon be the part of the real story of your history. However if you dwell on that mistake for so long, maybe, you'll missed some of the best part of the history.
We have our control in our life, there are some circumstances that we got no control, there are things just pop-out from nowhere but it is upon you how to face it.

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The Society

A Typical set up in a Mall in an ordinary day
in just observing the people around, you can
learn about the society itself, the behavior and
the entire society pattern of a community.

An individual must act in the nature of the society for it is the only idea that dominates in the minds of the people. The nature of the society stands as the foundations to recognize ones to another. However some of that society deviates from the shades of the nature, they live far from the nature, therefore sullen, slipping and fidgeted mind in the community. They are considered as different from the idea recognize by the society. The people are self-help individuals, they improve in their own, live on their own and breath on their own. Some of them grow, some of them sunken below the society who betrayed them, butchered in his ideas, forgotten on his own sense, living below the lives that God intended for a man to live. However above from this person's tragedy, there are divided person/individual who survives and flares in the dim of light opposing and changing the society for better. Some of them stands great, some of them live on their own and accept the flow of the nature in the society, there are person who decide to be like others, forgetting his own nature eaten in the abyss of the society's mind. Great person, stands, influence and take a firm beliefs on his own nature, thus changing the nature of the society in great cost, rejuvinate and hides in the persona, a mask to be recognize by the society, to be accepted and to blend in. They remain as their nature tells them, but they lived in lies for themselves, for they hate their own, abandoning the nature that identifies them in the middle of the society. Hating ones nature is a betrayal of ones identity, betraying the entire self and individuality. Forgetting their own existence, they are the living dead that to be live when remembered. However most of the jumps and change to the nature of the society transforming themselves and killing their own identity, giving in the nature-falling down the abyss. He crumble for her let others destroys their foundations, he let them dominates their idea. He did not fight, he leave the battlefield in fear of losing. He is weak, he is worst than the peole who let the nature of the society be theirs.
Stand on what you believe, fight for your won idea, your own identity

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Human Perception

Human perception differs from one another but there is
something in common

Lack of idea interpretation is one of the main concern today. Our perception do the job in analyzing this data from sensation collected using our senses from the information/data/stimuli in our environment.
The interpretation tends to give our mind an option to make decision. However our perception works not so well, the mind will be confused by the option given by the perception. Therefore committing mistakes in a certain situation.
Perception is the logical system that organize the data from the sensation to make conclusion. It can be improved through the process of learning and adopting certain kind of thinking (this is self thought, and self learned stuff, each individual have unique things to learn about--not standard and specific lesson). Human have different capability in their perception, however this isn't one of the thing that can make our perception weak. Human can surpass their own limit through their own desire. That makes and define a individual from an individual; human as human from animal with lower cognitive social intelligence.
The main concern in the perception weakness is the idea/knowledge of the mind (learned by certain individual) that process and makes ones decision. Therefore, the people, the society and the entire community that influence a man can make ones perception weak or strong. Such idea of improving can't  be done if the society itself have its weak foundations in establishing each perception of the individual. Even though, if ones society foundations is weak, there is a tendency that any individual on that community can improved, with ones self-improving capability.
All of the people rely on their community and there are less that can make their own kind of perception and yet relying on the community in the same time. We all do rely, ones proof is the belief of our ancestor in certain idea and knowledge.
Human mind today are literally weak to make decision, the stupidity is epidemic in the people. Well correct me if i'm wrong, Psychology and learning a human behavior didn't need to be so firm to understand, it just need to be you!

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The Life of Death

Life is like a son, and death comes down in sunset
(Balungao, Pangasinan)

Death is like an oath
takes our breath in loath.
Struggles underneath
Walks alone in coat.

We die with a word
Leaving one's a curd
As we pray to lord
With aces of card

As they gone we lost
Take them back in cost
Love not comes in host
Vanished life to boost

I write this poem for everyone, wasting their life to their own sake instead of spending it in worth cost. We can do all things in life before we dies to make ourself contented, however contenment isn't gained from our own desire, the people around you will teach you how to have such life. Sometimes we didn't understand why death comes in someone's life, taking all of our love ones beside us. There is Death to remind us that we're not living forever, we're living in a one shot world that you must to things better in just single life that is given on you. This is not any simple, supermario games that we can have five lives or more to correct our mistakes. The flow is going and accept the fact that you commit mistakes.
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Just Smile and carry on

Emman De Torres, ccollege classmate.

I was listening in every piece of thing that makes someone as who they are. I've listened hundred of story that makes sense more than what we saw at them. These story back in their early days is the part of what they look as of today, the person whom you know standing in front of you. It is the process of becoming who they're right now and who will they be after another day. Listening to someone's hurt, life and anything that they say is the most greatest gift and oppurtunity to know  someone. As what i believe, to know someone is to know how they end up to be the person whom you know.

I got this story that i've learned much from it as i think what is the essentials in smiling to someone whom you never know. I asks myself, why it is necessary to smile to people that you just meet on the way to the school as you walk away in the sidewalk. The idea was nonsense if we look on that simple side (you will look like an idiot) but if we look in the deeper sense of it, it is more essential that what you think.

He told me a story once when we're on the way to Batangas State University, in Malvar, Batangas few kilometers south of Manila together with bunch of mates as we seek for our related literature source. It was in the middle of the great traffic when he told me about smiling to the people on the other jeepney. I can't take the logic, i was thinking about it ever since he told me about it, why we have to smile to the other people? so i ask, he simply reply me "It makes me feel better when i talk to someone and find a new friends with them" "I just smile at them, sometimes they smile back but the others just carry on (ignore)"

Then the conclusion runs on my mind, that the essence of smiling on someone is a sign of a great concern, the sense of individualism is eliminated between the borders of each individual in a community. I've just noticed when i walk on the busy street, people walk by and pass in front of you--they just ignore you like you're just part of the rocks on the way creating a huge border. We're millions but it makes no sense why only few people have their concern on everyone, we're worse than a greed. Smiling to someone is making a great bridge that you can walk to make a one community not a society with their own worlds.

Keep on smiling and take no day without making someone happy. Eliminate the borders of Individualism.

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The Five People you meet in Heaven-Mitch Albom

I was able to read this on my table with the coffee after i've done reading the famed "Tuesday's with Morrie" that makes a heart felt sense in the minds of the reader. I enjoy reading it because there is a twist in every turn of the pages and carries a lot of load in life lesson much like what Mitch Albom Tuesday's with Morrie.
I'm also proud as a Filipino to include a Filipino character in the end named Tala and setting a World War 2 battlefield over my motherland. The words makes me imagine the location where the scene is taking place.
For the Psychologist as I'am who is still learning and on the process of being a professional someday, you will be not a true Psychologist if you haven't consider reading this kind of books into you lap. Highly recommended for the people who want to understand what the life means to us and why we have to make every second to the fullest.
The story runs with Eddie who is in the process of meeting five person who sets an important role to his life. I assure you that this is one of the books that you must read before you die.

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The Message Translates

To know isn't enough, discover and you'll find out

The massage translates it's own meaning as the reader reads the words and phrases that is written through symbols. We got different perceptions that lies on our minds that makes us more unique from the other people (excepts from our physical appearance and identities that makes us one of a kind). We got different taste on matters that no one can understand, he got our own definition of what is what and what is why. One of the strong proof of our own mind being unique to others is we feel things in different way that others didn't feel.
I was indeed carried on with this scenario that makes me think of what is the real meaning of a word and phrases in a sheet of paper. It makes me more interested as i think about our famous geniuses in the history that takes us in wild thinking, asking our own 'why they do such thing?'. These people that we know until now hides something beneath their paintings, the strokes of their hands and their inventions, 'why they do such thing, there must be a reason?'
We got our own understanding in matters in life, we think that person is wrong and this person as right. We join a group because we know it benefits us and makes us a better person. However once you asks someone near you, they would oppose some things in your decision saying that 'it is not for your own good' however you think differently thinking that it was indeed for your 'own good'
There are things that we must understand beneath the conclusion of what you see now, asking 'why do i right this thing?' and 'what urges me to do it?". It never ended up in doing things like that, the real message is not just what we see right now as i say "A MESSAGE IS NOT A MESSAGE BUT WORDS AND SYMBOLS ALONE IF THE RECEIVER IGNORES WHAT IT SAYS". Sometimes, the thing that we saw right now is just a part of the thing that carries the entire sense of the real message. However we're too lazy to look at it and search for it because of numbness of our own perception.

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Too much HATE will KILL YOU

"The more you hate, the more you love"
A famous quote (most people in the Philippines believes in this quote from unknown person, i don't know in the other country), and i agree on this sayings that the more you hate a person the more you love him. I will explain to you why people hates you, why they do that, and why hates turns to be your biggest enemy rather than that person/idea itself. We will not talk about love literally, but you can still apply this idea if you can relate the situation that i'm going to give you.
First of all, lets talk about why the title ends up "Too much HATE will KILL YOU", well it is too obvious in the phrase itself. It is like what the song say '...too much love will kill you.." (i don't know the title but i like hearing it when i'm sleeping), it is true that all things which comes 'too much' is not good. It is fine to hate someone, however when it reaches the sense of obsession (neurotic sense) it would be a hell of a great problem to be settled by someone or for you. However hating no one is also no good, all things comes in moderation, it would make people think that it is fine for them to do evil things to you because you'll not going to hate them for it.
What is HATE?
Hate is a normal and it is the self defense mechanism of the humans on its IDEA. The goal of this mechanism is to protect the IDEA THAT YOU BELIEVED from other extraneous variables that can affect the your entire IDEA. Most of hates comes from the person who got a huge impact on what you believe, even you didn't accept it or not, your unconsciousness is making it. .
Why people HATE?
People hates someone because they look at them as a threat in achieving their goals, much worse when that guy takes the glory of it instead of you who failed to attain that achievement. Lets take for example, you're in a workplace together with your co-worker and both of you is striving for the position as a Manager. Because your co-worker is a threat in achieving your goal, you'll hate him in that reason.
How can HATE be a person's enemy?
Hate will tear you apart and it will change you slowly without you noticing it that this certain thing that influence, changes you. Too much hate will kill you, if you hate Bruno Mars so much, you will curse all his song once you hear such thing. The more you think about "hating him" the more the sense of remembering that person. The longer you think about it the worse that idea will kill you.

For the people who hates someone pretty bad like they want to smash their heads, tear their legs, and split them a part, it is time for you to stop for a minute and ask yourself why you hate that person too much. If it is not so rational, some sort of: 'I hate them because they're wearing blue', 'i hate them because the way how they talk' 'i hate them because they watch porn'. Well if you think like that, it is time for you to change and understand this people instead. It is not their fault to be like that, the society shapes them, maybe they got reasons why they end up such a person like what you see them. If you hate them because they're dumb*ss as being a clumsy person, well you must understand them because mistakes are not made intentional. Be rational in thinking and makes all the reason be in rightful sense. Remember that it is not just YOU who got reason to be like that and it is not just YOU who is living in this society, we share in the same roof. If you don't want them, well find another group and F*CK OFF, these people didn't need person like you, they need person who can understand them.
For the people who feel being hate, you have to look at yourself also and asks yourself if they hate you because of this certain attitude of your or it is just the sense that you are doing good that makes them think that you are a threat on them. Just remember you hate to think first if someone hates you.

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Friends with Benifits

From left: Philip Capuno, Rigie Viter, Mark John Otordo and Peter Malveda

There are many kinds of friends in this world. However not all friends we know are really our friends, some of them are just part of the society that we  have to interact and talk with to continue our life in a community.
Most of us got less information/knowledge about how we can choose our friends, tips in the internet and from your guidance councilor. As a typical individual in the community, i experience all these things including hate, jealousy and all the matters that comes between each person of the society.
So, i put some simple things (words) for simple person to understand and to apply it on their own way.
This is my LEVEL OF KNOWING ONE'S IDENTITY. Someone told me that true and real friends know each other identities that makes them different from the other group in the society. It isn't the time that you are together as a friend, not even the likes, but your knowledge about this person that makes you feel alright (No sh*t actually).
Discover, the first step in knowing someone is to discover who they really are. This will confirm your idea about this person's identity. And of course you have to talk with him/her to discover things that you wanted to discover (it is on you, if you see a certain person as weird then you have to figure out if he is weird or just genius enough for you not to understand him). This is the first step in knowing someone through talking, observing him/her (if you like to be a stalker then go, just make it more sensible than following her/him alone).
Understand, after discovering who he/she was, if she/he is so religious that their house is full of saints, or just a simple girl and a perfect daughter/son. In this point you have to decide if you want that person to be your friend or just a person to build the society where you're right now. Some people ignore this thing, and just carry on, it is the reason why some of the "friendship" that you know end up in conflict or in great "isolation" to each other, because they really not understand that certain individual. They just jump towards to another step (which is to accept) and carry on ignoring the fact that your unconsciousness didn't like that person at all. You will realize this thing once your friend acted like a strange, like you just met a few hours earlier.
I saw this things from my own classmates, maybe the lack of information about having friends makes their relationship much like in a great chaos of cold war (you didn't know if they will hit your head or not)
Accept, to accept people is the most important thing that you will do in knowing someone's personality. After understanding him, of who he/she really was including her/his dislikes, interest, hobbies and all the weird things that she/he do. Acceptance is the most important thing in friendship. If you didn't accept some part of who he was, then you truly not his/her friend, you are just "somebody that i used to know" kind of stuff. A true friend accept the entire you, not just few of you, because a certain individual is a package it is not some Filipino sari-sari store or installment payments.
lastly, Be friend with that is the last after all those things that you put aside. Real friends is like a family that you can ask for something when you need help and when you feel blue you can ask for a hand to lift your burden.
Be rational in choosing your friends, it will make someone as who they're and who they will be in the future.

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The importance of sentimental value

"A certain matter makes more important than a gold in chest if we hold it and keep it in our hearts that this thing comes in the situation that makes us today"

When i was a kid i was wondering why people care too much about things that got no market value. Then i realize that the sense that they make it important is that, they place their emotion over that thing, it is a part of their past that make them one as we see them today.
One of the cheapest example of this is the wedding ring. It is not the gold, the diamonds or the design that makes it so important to a couple, even how cheap that ring is made of--even it is made out of plastic, a coin (it is illegal, try it for your own risk--they do that because coins are rustproof except if that is not authentic) or just simple straw. In that simple ring they can take their memories as they look at it everyday that "Oh, it is the best part of my life to marry this girl". It is true that market value is not important for the people who put their sentimental value in a certain object.
It is a sign that human is a living things carrying the sense of caring, even it is non or living things.
Sentimental value is important than a market value for the people who cares about themselves.

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You're NEVER too young to DREAM BIG

We all got dreams, we hope for it like it was the last thing we've got except from your crazy neighborhood or your 1996 ford truck. We all wanted those dream happen in our life, however people are different to each other that some people dream when they're awake. That is the great difference that not all dreamers can understand.
(This story is from the bottom of my mind and if you think there are some parts that sounds like it happened in your favorite movie, well let me know it, just in case i have watched it on my own)

This story is about a girl name Kate and her little dream that soon be her reality.

My name is Kate Shillings, a normal teenager in high school facing different problems including how to be with guys, interact with other students, and have friends to talk with during break time. I'm always alone in the corner of the cafeteria in a cold table eating while watching other children having fun together with their peers. I was hoping to have one so that i can have a buddy to talk as we return back home from school. I was always hoping about it, but time grows longer and months faded to summer that dream never came into me.
Because we are newly moved from San Fernando Valley, new life stuck me down starting nothing leaving all of my known friends in the Middle School and my sweet memories with them. However, we're here and there is no coming back and i have to be strong as i'm the only child that my parents would be proud of. 
Every night i lie on the balcony of my room and look at those stars wishing that this dream will soon happen so that i can be a happy girl much like my parents. They're in love with each other like they're still as young as me and i wish that i will feel the same thing that i see everyday. In the clear sky of the night, i was looking how great the world and how many people is looking at the same star that i'm staring right now. I was wondering if he or she is thinking the same thing, to have a friend to talk with, that is my dream that i wish to happen. Then as i stare a falling star draw between the spaces of the twinkling stars. As my my mother told me, that these stars falling down from the heaven comes in purpose, for the people who sees it fall to wish--they said it will come true just put you heart on it. So, i wish to have a friend that can defend me from the horde of bullies, i always wanted it ever since.
The next day, normal day, i'm still thinking about it--my dream to have friend. However the same thing happen to me again, bullies send me down insulting prank on how chubby my body that "no guy will ever attempt to be friend with me".
I do the same thing every night and waited for another falling star to draw in the sky before i take myself into the bed. I wish the same thing again and again, holding it as the only thing that keeps me going to school hoping that someday someone will be my friend. I was thinking if that person is a girl or a guy, what we would do every weekend except from texting or tweeting, if he or she would be the kind of friend that i wanted, all the things that will probably happen after i got a friend is all playing on my mind. It is the only thing i've got, the only thing that i posses that can give me the sense of the future.
I hold it, until i become senior and still the same girl that they know this past years in High School. A quiet kind of girl who just put herself in wearing nice clothes to please everybody's eyes. As i go along the first day of class, a guy called me in the corridor and as i turned back i quickly recognized his face. It was Israel, my good friend in Los Angeles together with my friend standing on the lobby waving at me. At that time, i feel that my dream come true and the feeling comes up as i think about having a friend each  day that passed. I smile and run towards them as they greet me.
On that point i've learned that i'm trying to look for a friend that is does not exists, I've a bunch of friend that i forgot as i go along. I was thinking about being empty without a friend but the real thing is that i've got a friend with them.

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The Towering Fame-

THE TOWERING FAME
-Jay San Juan

Greatness belongs in each of us,
In ever man you meet in the bus
Though greatness comes to our desire,
not for the people we call sire
To the person who want to admire,
not for the sake, but for greatest desire.
Long lost person mind,
can find where it hide.
The secret of towering fame
that will come even he is lame.
For why we can't catch it?
Even our eyes can see light?
That is a secret few can understand
That is why less of them are able to stand.

Most of the people wonders about being famous, what is the secret behind those stars shining in front of the reel. I defined some of it in this poem that i wrote about six months ago while figuring out why people end up following useless figures in the community that just give them shit on how to use drugs and send yourself in the rehabilitation center. Then i came up in the conclusion that the answer of it never came from anyone around you, sometimes we're numb to know what it means. Even i have to tell you the secret behind it, it is  just a simple word for others but for the people who can understand things better than looking what the terms said, it would be coming in your mind like you learned it from yourself.
The secret of greatness is DESIRE, one video game character says (Call of Duty:Modern warfare 3) that it is not just the superpowers that can create a war, it is just the will of a single man.

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