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This is the official and the final personal blog site of Jay San Juan. Take it or leave it, post it or tag it, selfie or group pic, murder or suicide. Anything you wanted to know, if you wanted to know is here. To cut the shit, this site provides some bits of logical life teachings that sometimes ignores by our own senses, this is a compilation of Jay San Juan self taught teachings. Contact us for any suggestion of topics if there is any problem concerning about your reading experience here on this plain white site.
Let me write the words I tell, for I to show it and sell. I don't want to make it fell on the ground as well. So I put it in papers for real, to inspire and to feel other people who lives around the wheel. For I exist not for myself but for the people who needs in help but I'm just a man in kelp so I put it in the words instead

Mga Pamahiin ng Pinoy sa New Year

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Monday, December 30, 2013 | 10:54 PM

New year celebration in my hometown- Balungao, Pangasinan
Matagal nang naniniwala ang mga Pilipino sa pamahiin, Mas lalo na ang mga matatanda na halos i-checklist na nila ang dapat nilang gawin tuwing sasapit ang bagong taon at sa araw ng bagong taon. Mrami akong naririnig mula sa matatanda sa kanto at sa bahy namin tungkol dito. Aaminin ko na bago pa man ako mabighani sa mga slita ni John Stuart Mill, Sigmund Freud at Albert Einstein (Isali ko kaya ung salita ni Totoy Brown) naniniw ako sa mga pamahiin dahil sa nakakatakot at dahil na rin ito'y pinaniniwalaan ng nakakatanda sa akin.
Kinalimutan ko na ito ng nadiskubre kong parang joke lang ni Juan ang mga ito. Ngayon may-iian akong naalala na ginagawa ko tuwing bgong taon. At ayun gumawa ako ng isang listahan a aking pagkakaintindi sa mga ito.

Mga pamahiin sa bagong taon:
1. Maghanda ng tig-iisang dosenang bilog na prutas sa lamesa
'swerte pasok pera' yan nga ang sabi ng mga insik, nakuha ito ng Pinoy sa mga Tsino. Sabi daw nila na ang biog na prutas ay nagsisimbulo ng pera, maraming pera. At ang isang dosenang bilang nito ay nagsisimbulo sa dalawampungdalwa na buwan ng taon. Ang ibig sabihin, maraming pera sa buong taon, swerte :D
2. Magsuot ng polka-dots sa bisperas at araw ng pasko
tungkol nanaman ito sa pera at malamang alam na alam ito ng karamihan sa atin. Mabenta ang polka-dot na daster sa Divioria at sa Baclaran.
3. Huwag mag-hain ng manok 
Sabi ng tatay ko sumisimbulo ito ng 'isang kahig, isang tuka' sa buhay next year. Basta masarap ang fried chicken.
4. Magsabog ng barya sa loob ng bahay sa bisperas ng pasko.
Alam na na this!
5. Alugin ang bulsa na puno ng barya pagdating ng bagong taon.
6. Huwag itaob ang isda (kung mayroong handang isda) pagnakain na ung (lenght wise) kalahati, malas yun.
Para daw hindi tayo tataob (lulugmok sa kahirapan, either may mamamatay or may mangyayari sa inyo na masama).
7. Gumising ng maaga sa uno at tumalon para tumangkad.
Naalala ko tuloy ung friends ko sa facebook na umaasa sa pamahiin na ito, paano ba naman legal age na siya at kasing laki pa rin siya ng first year high school. Ung iba, tumatalon sa bisperas ng bagong taon, sa panahon ng putukan, kalampagan, putulan ng kamay at daliri at barilan sa labas.
8. Magpaputok para umalis ang bad spirit (pero ung iba nagpapaputok para may maalis sa kanila)

Naalala ko tuloy yug sabi ni Brad Pitt sa Ang Dating Doon. Ung nagpapaputok sa labas para umalis ang bad spirit, asaan ba sila pupunta edi sa tahimik--sa loob ng bahay. Kaya daw ang dapat gawin sa loob ng bahay magpaputok para umalis ang bad spirit.
Ung mga napuputulan ng kamay dahil sa nagpapaputok, normal lang yang at katangahan na din.
9. Bumili ng pampaswerte para hindi malasin.
Alam na siguro ninyo ito lahat, palaging tinatanung iyan at ibinabalit sa TV.

At higit sa lahat-
10. Bawal salubungin ang bagong taon ng tulog

Mamalasin ka buong taon o kaya'y magkakasakit ka.

Hindi masamang maniwala sa mga ganitong bagay pero huwag iasa sa mga pamahiin kung anong mangyayari sayo sa susunod na taon. Maligayang Bagong Taon!
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The Life of Death

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Monday, December 23, 2013 | 11:56 AM

Life is like a son, and death comes down in sunset
(Balungao, Pangasinan)
Death is like an oath
takes our breath in loath.
Struggles underneath
Walks alone in coat.

We die with a word
Leaving one's a curd
As we pray to lord
With aces of card

As they gone we lost
Take them back in cost
Love not comes in host
Vanished life to boost

I write this poem for everyone, wasting their life to their own sake instead of spending it in worth cost. We can do all things in life before we dies to make ourself contented, however contenment isn't gained from our own desire, the people around you will teach you how to have such life. Sometimes we didn't understand why death comes in someone's life, taking all of our love ones beside us. There is Death to remind us that we're not living forever, we're living in a one shot world that you must to things better in just single life that is given on you. This is not any simple, supermario games that we can have five lives or more to correct our mistakes. The flow is going and accept the fact that you commit mistakes.
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Just Smile and carry on

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Sunday, December 22, 2013 | 11:18 AM

Emman De Torres, ccollege classmate.
I was listening in every piece of thing that makes someone as who they are. I've listened hundred of story that makes sense more than what we saw at them. These story back in their early days is the part of what they look as of today, the person whom you know standing in front of you. It is the process of becoming who they're right now and who will they be after another day. Listening to someone's hurt, life and anything that they say is the most greatest gift and oppurtunity to know  someone. As what i believe, to know someone is to know how they end up to be the person whom you know.

I got this story that i've learned much from it as i think what is the essentials in smiling to someone whom you never know. I asks myself, why it is necessary to smile to people that you just meet on the way to the school as you walk away in the sidewalk. The idea was nonsense if we look on that simple side (you will look like an idiot) but if we look in the deeper sense of it, it is more essential that what you think.

He told me a story once when we're on the way to Batangas State University, in Malvar, Batangas few kilometers south of Manila together with bunch of mates as we seek for our related literature source. It was in the middle of the great traffic when he told me about smiling to the people on the other jeepney. I can't take the logic, i was thinking about it ever since he told me about it, why we have to smile to the other people? so i ask, he simply reply me "It makes me feel better when i talk to someone and find a new friends with them" "I just smile at them, sometimes they smile back but the others just carry on (ignore)"

Then the conclusion runs on my mind, that the essence of smiling on someone is a sign of a great concern, the sense of individualism is eliminated between the borders of each individual in a community. I've just noticed when i walk on the busy street, people walk by and pass in front of you--they just ignore you like you're just part of the rocks on the way creating a huge border. We're millions but it makes no sense why only few people have their concern on everyone, we're worse than a greed. Smiling to someone is making a great bridge that you can walk to make a one community not a society with their own worlds.

Keep on smiling and take no day without making someone happy. Eliminate the borders of Individualism.
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The Five People you meet in Heaven-Mitch Albom

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Saturday, December 21, 2013 | 6:49 AM

I was able to read this on my table with the coffee after i've done reading the famed "Tuesday's with Morrie" that makes a heart felt sense in the minds of the reader. I enjoy reading it because there is a twist in every turn of the pages and carries a lot of load in life lesson much like what Mitch Albom Tuesday's with Morrie.
I'm also proud as a Filipino to include a Filipino character in the end named Tala and setting a World War 2 battlefield over my motherland. The words makes me imagine the location where the scene is taking place.
For the Psychologist as I'am who is still learning and on the process of being a professional someday, you will be not a true Psychologist if you haven't consider reading this kind of books into you lap. Highly recommended for the people who want to understand what the life means to us and why we have to make every second to the fullest.
The story runs with Eddie who is in the process of meeting five person who sets an important role to his life. I assure you that this is one of the books that you must read before you die.

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The Message Translates

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Thursday, December 19, 2013 | 10:47 AM

To know isn't enough, discover and you'll find out
The massage translates it's own meaning as the reader reads the words and phrases that is written through symbols. We got different perceptions that lies on our minds that makes us more unique from the other people (excepts from our physical appearance and identities that makes us one of a kind). We got different taste on matters that no one can understand, he got our own definition of what is what and what is why. One of the strong proof of our own mind being unique to others is we feel things in different way that others didn't feel.
I was indeed carried on with this scenario that makes me think of what is the real meaning of a word and phrases in a sheet of paper. It makes me more interested as i think about our famous geniuses in the history that takes us in wild thinking, asking our own 'why they do such thing?'. These people that we know until now hides something beneath their paintings, the strokes of their hands and their inventions, 'why they do such thing, there must be a reason?'
We got our own understanding in matters in life, we think that person is wrong and this person as right. We join a group because we know it benefits us and makes us a better person. However once you asks someone near you, they would oppose some things in your decision saying that 'it is not for your own good' however you think differently thinking that it was indeed for your 'own good'
There are things that we must understand beneath the conclusion of what you see now, asking 'why do i right this thing?' and 'what urges me to do it?". It never ended up in doing things like that, the real message is not just what we see right now as i say "A MESSAGE IS NOT A MESSAGE BUT WORDS AND SYMBOLS ALONE IF THE RECEIVER IGNORES WHAT IT SAYS". Sometimes, the thing that we saw right now is just a part of the thing that carries the entire sense of the real message. However we're too lazy to look at it and search for it because of numbness of our own perception.
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Ayon kay Juan at Pedro- Ang dakilang tauhan ng kalokohan

Kwentuhang Pilipino pati sa jeep kwento lang ng kwento
Sa lahat ng makalumang joke ng Pinoy--kung maaalala pa ng mga taong nakakaalala ng panahong ito (magaling hindi ka pa nakakalimot)--ay sadyang gas-gas na ang pangalang Pedro at Juan bilang tauhan ng mga scenariong mapagtatawanan ng mga Pilipino. Noong kapanahunan pa ng tambalang John Loyd Cruz at Bea Alonzon, naririnig ko ito sa mga lasengong tumatagay sa kainitan ng araw kasabay ang pusang pinulot sa kanto na ginawang pulutan at ang gin na inutang kay Aling Nena. Nakakatawa siya at minsan naisi-share din siya sa mga ka-tropang hindi pa narinig ang kwento tungkol sa bagong istorya ni Juan at Pedro. Kulang na lang ay gawing teleserye and adventures ng dalawang Santong ito na kinikiliti ang malalaking tiyan ng mga lespu sa Police Station. Matagal-tagal na rin na hindi ko narinig ang sumunod na sequel ni Juan at ni Pedro dahil nga sa lumawak ang kaisipan ng mga Pilipino at nag-level up na ang katatawanan. Mula sa santo, patungong sa 'Knock-kncok' mga kasabihang 'wa-connect', 'mga memes' ni Boy Dimples, Totoy Brown ni Totoy Gold na rin, 'Pogi Problems' ni sir RB (FYI: Ramon Bautista, the self proclaimed, BOY NEXT DOOR),'pick-up lines' at ang 'pagbabara' ni Vice ganda na sadyang nakakatuwa sa mga taong open minded.
Ng nawala na sina Pedro at Juan, dumating ang 'knock-knock' na kung saan ilalapat mo ang isang salita na katono ng isang parte ng kanta. At ngayon, buhay pa rin ang sequel nitong walang katapusang scenario sa pintuan, na sa pagkatapos ng kanta eh hindi naman pinapapasok yung ng 'knock-kncok' ng pintuan.
Napunta naman ang mga taong walang pag-asa sa humor sa mga wa-connect na joke na ang hirap abutin dahil sa napakalayo ang distansya sa ating pagkakaintindi. Ito yung mga joke na nakakatawa dahil sa ka-cornihan at hindi mo alam kung bakit ka tumawa, dahil ba sa joke o sa kabobohan ng gumawa nito?
At dahil lumalaki na ang pag-gamit ng pinoy sa mga Social Media (Sobrang exaggerated na halos gusto palaging online para lang makita kung may naglike sa selfie photo) nauso ang memes, isang inedit na picture at pinaglalagyan ng mga akmang salita na may connect sa picture. Ngunit ang ganitong paraan ng pagpapatawa ay single sided lang (naalala ko tuloy si Boy Dimples, yung lalaki na iyon eh may kapansanan pala tapos hindi pa niya alam na yung mga picture niya sa FB eh dumami ng times two times two).
At sa mga nagkakaroon ng problema dahil sa kawalan ng confidence sa pagmumukhang nadisgrasya, dumating na si sir Ramon Bautista na makikilala natin sa katanungang "Bakit hindi ka kras ng Kras mo?". Try mong magtanong sa kanya sa formspring kahit minsan kung gusto mong magbigti dahil ayaw sa iyo ng babaeng iniirog mo. Nakakatawa, mahangin at may sense ang sinasabi.
Sa mga corny, hindi pa rin kumukupas ang pick-up lines na pinauso ni "Boy Pick-Up" (Hindi yung wa-connect na pick-up lines) na hanggang ngayon ginagamit pa ng mga lalaking dumadamobs sa mga babae.
At sa mga high level na katatawanan na hindi applicable sa lahat, ang mga moves ni vice ganda na hindi katuwa-tuwa sa ibang paningin. Ito yung mga joke na may-sense pero sa sobrang taas ng sense eh hindi na kayang intindihin. Tulad halimbawa ng mga pambabarang nakakatawa pero nakakainis,
At dahil sa mga ito nalaos ang mahabang adbintyurs nina Pedro at Juan. Nagpapatunay lang na ang katatawanan ay hindi natin maiwawaksi sa kulturang Pilipino na kahit sa sobrang hirap na ng panahon eh, tawa pa rin ng tawa si Juan kahit nagmumukha na siyang tanga sa tingin ng iba.
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Too much HATE will KILL YOU

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Thursday, December 12, 2013 | 9:45 PM

"The more you hate, the more you love"
A famous quote (most people in the Philippines believes in this quote from unknown person, i don't know in the other country), and i agree on this sayings that the more you hate a person the more you love him. I will explain to you why people hates you, why they do that, and why hates turns to be your biggest enemy rather than that person/idea itself. We will not talk about love literally, but you can still apply this idea if you can relate the situation that i'm going to give you.
First of all, lets talk about why the title ends up "Too much HATE will KILL YOU", well it is too obvious in the phrase itself. It is like what the song say '...too much love will kill you.." (i don't know the title but i like hearing it when i'm sleeping), it is true that all things which comes 'too much' is not good. It is fine to hate someone, however when it reaches the sense of obsession (neurotic sense) it would be a hell of a great problem to be settled by someone or for you. However hating no one is also no good, all things comes in moderation, it would make people think that it is fine for them to do evil things to you because you'll not going to hate them for it.
What is HATE?
Hate is a normal and it is the self defense mechanism of the humans on its IDEA. The goal of this mechanism is to protect the IDEA THAT YOU BELIEVED from other extraneous variables that can affect the your entire IDEA. Most of hates comes from the person who got a huge impact on what you believe, even you didn't accept it or not, your unconsciousness is making it. .
Why people HATE?
People hates someone because they look at them as a threat in achieving their goals, much worse when that guy takes the glory of it instead of you who failed to attain that achievement. Lets take for example, you're in a workplace together with your co-worker and both of you is striving for the position as a Manager. Because your co-worker is a threat in achieving your goal, you'll hate him in that reason.
How can HATE be a person's enemy?
Hate will tear you apart and it will change you slowly without you noticing it that this certain thing that influence, changes you. Too much hate will kill you, if you hate Bruno Mars so much, you will curse all his song once you hear such thing. The more you think about "hating him" the more the sense of remembering that person. The longer you think about it the worse that idea will kill you.

For the people who hates someone pretty bad like they want to smash their heads, tear their legs, and split them a part, it is time for you to stop for a minute and ask yourself why you hate that person too much. If it is not so rational, some sort of: 'I hate them because they're wearing blue', 'i hate them because the way how they talk' 'i hate them because they watch porn'. Well if you think like that, it is time for you to change and understand this people instead. It is not their fault to be like that, the society shapes them, maybe they got reasons why they end up such a person like what you see them. If you hate them because they're dumb*ss as being a clumsy person, well you must understand them because mistakes are not made intentional. Be rational in thinking and makes all the reason be in rightful sense. Remember that it is not just YOU who got reason to be like that and it is not just YOU who is living in this society, we share in the same roof. If you don't want them, well find another group and F*CK OFF, these people didn't need person like you, they need person who can understand them.
For the people who feel being hate, you have to look at yourself also and asks yourself if they hate you because of this certain attitude of your or it is just the sense that you are doing good that makes them think that you are a threat on them. Just remember you hate to think first if someone hates you.

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Jeepney Culture

Mga bagay na kapansin-pansin ngunit hindi napapansin ng ibang Pilipino sa pagsakay nila sa pambansang sasakyan ng bansa, ang Jeep (Dyip). Hindi ka tunay na pinoy kung hindi mo nasubukang sumakay sa Jeep, o kung isa ka ngang Pinoy at hindi ka man lang nakaramdam na sumakay sa mala-sardinas na sasakyan na ito ay masasabing isa kang "banyaga sa sariling bayan" (alien na lang kasi kahit mga Kano, Briton, o Aleman eh sumasakay pag naka-tungo na sila dito sa Pinas)
Sa subrang tagal ko na nabubuhay sa Pinas eh, nabobobo na ako sa kapapansin nito sa ating pangmasang sasakyan.
1. una sa lahat ay ang OBLIGASYON natin sa dyip, ang pagpasa ng pamasahe (kung malapit ka sa istribo o dili kaya eh malayo-layo kaunti sa mamang tsuper). Mga kapwa ko Pinoy, hindi po obligasyon ng mga taong malapit kay Tsuper ang pagbigay ng inyong pamasahe. Bayad ninyo iyon at ineestorbo mo ang kapwa mo mananakay malay mo, nag-eemo sa byahe o ine-enjoy ang tanawin sa gilid ng kalsada. Mahiya naman kayo kahit minsan, MAGPA-SALAMAT naman kayo sabay ngiti.
Mali: "Bayad" kuha ng pamasahe tapos bigay kay driver 'snob'
Tama: "Makikiabot nga ng bayad" kuha ng pamasahe "Salamat" 'ngiti'
Nabwibwisit ako sa mga taong parang hindi edukado na sa tingin nila na obligasyon ng katabi niya na i-abot kay driver ang pamasahe.
2. Mga taong nag-aamoy buro na at nanglilimahid na sa amoy, ano ito private car na ikaw lang ang sasakay. May mga tao diyan na todo ang linis ng kanilang katawan para sa interbyu niya tapos ung katabi lang pala ang magsisira ng pinaghirapan niyang paghahanda. Kung may "this seat is reserved for mababaho ang amoy" pwede pa, eh wala naman ganun eh. Kahit papaano naman, maligo kayo, para respeto sa ibang mananakay.
3. Feel at home mga taong naka-sando (tapos hawak pa sa hawakan, nakalantad ang kili-kili, biruin niyo nakakabweset lalo na kung may amoy), naka short (na halos makita na ung singit-singit na may libag) mahiya naman kayo sa mga taong sasakay, baka mapakunot ang noo nila sa napakasagwang imahe sa loob. Hoy, pampublikong sasakyan ito, hindi po ninyo ito bahay na isusuot ang gustong isuot. Magdamit naman kayo ng mga damit na wasto (Hindi naman ung napaka pormal).
4. sa mga babaeng sobra ang paniniwala sa Rejoice, yung mga buhok na nagsisiliparan sa mukha ng katabi na halos kainin na niya na parang spaghetti ang kanyang mahahabang buhok. Ang sakit kaya sa mukha, mas lalo na kung ang tulin ng patakbo ni driver, para kang sinasapak ng tambo sa mukha.
5. Sardinas, yung mga Barker na nagtatawag ng pasahero yung halos puno na kayo at wala ng espasyo sa gilid-gilid tapos nagtatawag pa ng pasahero. Ano ito, pare-pareho tayo ng pwet,minsan sabihin ninyo "kuya, saan ninyo ipapaupo yung ibang pasahero sa taas o sa guong".
May mga bagay na hindi ko na sinali dito sa maliit na listahan na ito, kasi kung iisa-isahin ko pa eh baka magsawa na kayo sa kasasakay ng dyip. Iiilan lang ito sa mga bagay na aking napansin sa aking pagsakay ng dyib.
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Friends with Benifits

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Wednesday, December 11, 2013 | 11:59 PM

From left: Philip Capuno, Rigie Viter, Mark John Otordo and Peter Malveda
There are many kinds of friends in this world. However not all friends we know are really our friends, some of them are just part of the society that we  have to interact and talk with to continue our life in a community.
Most of us got less information/knowledge about how we can choose our friends, tips in the internet and from your guidance councilor. As a typical individual in the community, i experience all these things including hate, jealousy and all the matters that comes between each person of the society.
So, i put some simple things (words) for simple person to understand and to apply it on their own way.
This is my LEVEL OF KNOWING ONE'S IDENTITY. Someone told me that true and real friends know each other identities that makes them different from the other group in the society. It isn't the time that you are together as a friend, not even the likes, but your knowledge about this person that makes you feel alright (No sh*t actually).
Discover, the first step in knowing someone is to discover who they really are. This will confirm your idea about this person's identity. And of course you have to talk with him/her to discover things that you wanted to discover (it is on you, if you see a certain person as weird then you have to figure out if he is weird or just genius enough for you not to understand him). This is the first step in knowing someone through talking, observing him/her (if you like to be a stalker then go, just make it more sensible than following her/him alone).
Understand, after discovering who he/she was, if she/he is so religious that their house is full of saints, or just a simple girl and a perfect daughter/son. In this point you have to decide if you want that person to be your friend or just a person to build the society where you're right now. Some people ignore this thing, and just carry on, it is the reason why some of the "friendship" that you know end up in conflict or in great "isolation" to each other, because they really not understand that certain individual. They just jump towards to another step (which is to accept) and carry on ignoring the fact that your unconsciousness didn't like that person at all. You will realize this thing once your friend acted like a strange, like you just met a few hours earlier.
I saw this things from my own classmates, maybe the lack of information about having friends makes their relationship much like in a great chaos of cold war (you didn't know if they will hit your head or not)
Accept, to accept people is the most important thing that you will do in knowing someone's personality. After understanding him, of who he/she really was including her/his dislikes, interest, hobbies and all the weird things that she/he do. Acceptance is the most important thing in friendship. If you didn't accept some part of who he was, then you truly not his/her friend, you are just "somebody that i used to know" kind of stuff. A true friend accept the entire you, not just few of you, because a certain individual is a package it is not some Filipino sari-sari store or installment payments.
lastly, Be friend with that is the last after all those things that you put aside. Real friends is like a family that you can ask for something when you need help and when you feel blue you can ask for a hand to lift your burden.
Be rational in choosing your friends, it will make someone as who they're and who they will be in the future.




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The importance of sentimental value

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Monday, December 9, 2013 | 11:35 PM

"A certain matter makes more important than a gold in chest if we hold it and keep it in our hearts that this thing comes in the situation that makes us today"

When i was a kid i was wondering why people care too much about things that got no market value. Then i realize that the sense that they make it important is that, they place their emotion over that thing, it is a part of their past that make them one as we see them today.
One of the cheapest example of this is the wedding ring. It is not the gold, the diamonds or the design that makes it so important to a couple, even how cheap that ring is made of--even it is made out of plastic, a coin (it is illegal, try it for your own risk--they do that because coins are rustproof except if that is not authentic) or just simple straw. In that simple ring they can take their memories as they look at it everyday that "Oh, it is the best part of my life to marry this girl". It is true that market value is not important for the people who put their sentimental value in a certain object.
It is a sign that human is a living things carrying the sense of caring, even it is non or living things.
Sentimental value is important than a market value for the people who cares about themselves.
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You're NEVER too young to DREAM BIG

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Sunday, December 8, 2013 | 12:37 PM

We all got dreams, we hope for it like it was the last thing we've got except from your crazy neighborhood or your 1996 ford truck. We all wanted those dream happen in our life, however people are different to each other that some people dream when they're awake. That is the great difference that not all dreamers can understand.
(This story is from the bottom of my mind and if you think there are some parts that sounds like it happened in your favorite movie, well let me know it, just in case i have watched it on my own)

This story is about a girl name Kate and her little dream that soon be her reality.

My name is Kate Shillings, a normal teenager in high school facing different problems including how to be with guys, interact with other students, and have friends to talk with during break time. I'm always alone in the corner of the cafeteria in a cold table eating while watching other children having fun together with their peers. I was hoping to have one so that i can have a buddy to talk as we return back home from school. I was always hoping about it, but time grows longer and months faded to summer that dream never came into me.
Because we are newly moved from San Fernando Valley, new life stuck me down starting nothing leaving all of my known friends in the Middle School and my sweet memories with them. However, we're here and there is no coming back and i have to be strong as i'm the only child that my parents would be proud of. 
Every night i lie on the balcony of my room and look at those stars wishing that this dream will soon happen so that i can be a happy girl much like my parents. They're in love with each other like they're still as young as me and i wish that i will feel the same thing that i see everyday. In the clear sky of the night, i was looking how great the world and how many people is looking at the same star that i'm staring right now. I was wondering if he or she is thinking the same thing, to have a friend to talk with, that is my dream that i wish to happen. Then as i stare a falling star draw between the spaces of the twinkling stars. As my my mother told me, that these stars falling down from the heaven comes in purpose, for the people who sees it fall to wish--they said it will come true just put you heart on it. So, i wish to have a friend that can defend me from the horde of bullies, i always wanted it ever since.
The next day, normal day, i'm still thinking about it--my dream to have friend. However the same thing happen to me again, bullies send me down insulting prank on how chubby my body that "no guy will ever attempt to be friend with me".
I do the same thing every night and waited for another falling star to draw in the sky before i take myself into the bed. I wish the same thing again and again, holding it as the only thing that keeps me going to school hoping that someday someone will be my friend. I was thinking if that person is a girl or a guy, what we would do every weekend except from texting or tweeting, if he or she would be the kind of friend that i wanted, all the things that will probably happen after i got a friend is all playing on my mind. It is the only thing i've got, the only thing that i posses that can give me the sense of the future.
I hold it, until i become senior and still the same girl that they know this past years in High School. A quiet kind of girl who just put herself in wearing nice clothes to please everybody's eyes. As i go along the first day of class, a guy called me in the corridor and as i turned back i quickly recognized his face. It was Israel, my good friend in Los Angeles together with my friend standing on the lobby waving at me. At that time, i feel that my dream come true and the feeling comes up as i think about having a friend each  day that passed. I smile and run towards them as they greet me.
On that point i've learned that i'm trying to look for a friend that is does not exists, I've a bunch of friend that i forgot as i go along. I was thinking about being empty without a friend but the real thing is that i've got a friend with them.
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The Towering Fame-

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Friday, December 6, 2013 | 11:06 PM










THE TOWERING FAME
-Jay San Juan

Greatness belongs in each of us,
In ever man you meet in the bus
Though greatness comes to our desire,
not for the people we call sire
To the person who want to admire,
not for the sake, but for greatest desire.
Long lost person mind,
can find where it hide.
The secret of towering fame
that will come even he is lame.
For why we can't catch it?
Even our eyes can see light?
That is a secret few can understand
That is why less of them are able to stand.

Most of the people wonders about being famous, what is the secret behind those stars shining in front of the reel. I defined some of it in this poem that i wrote about six months ago while figuring out why people end up following useless figures in the community that just give them shit on how to use drugs and send yourself in the rehabilitation center. Then i came up in the conclusion that the answer of it never came from anyone around you, sometimes we're numb to know what it means. Even i have to tell you the secret behind it, it is  just a simple word for others but for the people who can understand things better than looking what the terms said, it would be coming in your mind like you learned it from yourself.
The secret of greatness is DESIRE, one video game character says (Call of Duty:Modern warfare 3) that it is not just the superpowers that can create a war, it is just the will of a single man.
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Ender's Game- Orson Scott Card

The difference between the movie and the book is that Ender went up to trail in the battle school when he was eight, not just like in the movie. This is completely awesome in the name of science fiction novels, including political conflict and some sort of things that defines human in reality. The story didn't weight too much in moral because the character have some violent actions and words that is no good to any children who wanted to read this book.

(I've got this thing in the web, and if anything asks me why i'm distributing this copy without the notice from the author, well asks first the people who send this copy in the internet before i will entertain your NSA like question)

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There is always a FOOD on the ground

Not because you're a poor man or belongs to the lower class society it didn't mean that "It was a bad luck having me here is such life". If you think that way, you're wrong, because we're looking at the dark side instead of facing the minimal things that got greater effects on ourself.
If you keep on thinking about how bad luck you're as you go along, you will keep on thinking about it at the end of the day instead of making another way to overthrown such feelings. Take all the things in you as your strength and you will see how it will work.
Lets take an example: A man got a funny face (literally funny face, some sort of exotic that you will laugh as soon as you got a glimpse at it) he was teased all the way until the end of the day. Think about the consequences that would happen to this man if he thing about how "bad luck" is his face that all of the people laugh at him, nothing happens just making your own way of frustrating and killing yourself. If he use that "funny face" look as his advantages instead of disadvantages, like sending himself to a comedy bar that can make him famous or in the carnival with his "killer moves" in front of the crowd.
The truth is that the "Bad luck" feeling is just our own illusion and such illusion is like a medical disease that can be cured if one's wanted to be cured.
Another thing is that, people understand things better when they are struggling, when they're loosing, when they are failing. Mistakes are not as "Bad luck" as we think, it is the best teacher and the worst killer if we use it not in the way it was used to be. If you lost in a battle, don't think about the word "Lost" think about the reason why in the heck you lost in this little weaklings.
People will no longer look to another side if they're in the sense of glory. Rich people will not going to take their steps back to the lowest level of society to eat a rat, however poor will likely to take their steps up to eat rice. Think about the logic between the words. It was on you if you will keep on thinking about your "Bad Luck" there is always counter-strike on each strikes of our life.
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One thing is sure in future WE WILL DIE

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Thursday, December 5, 2013 | 2:07 AM

Dying is not the main thing people think everyday, it is living. We didn't look on the end of the bridge, we focus on how to walk not to cross in it. We feared about the DEATH instead of making it an example that we got limited time to spend here on earth. However we are numb about the reality that we're going to die in uncertain time--who knows, next day, next week, or later- one thing we're sure is that WE WILL DIE.
In this short time in breathing into this adult's world, doing the things we must do is not enough to say that we live worthy with others. It didn't said that if you die, you done all things in your life. No, some people die without doing what is the right thing for them to do while they exist. Before it will come, do all the things that we need to do, that is why i take list and post it here for you to know some overview of our life. This is just few of it, the rest would be on your own quest to find.
Live with no sorry my grandmother died when i was fourteen, and before she dies as she succumb in deathbed she called all of her known relatives and ask for forgiveness from them, including me. I just realize that she wanted to die with no sorry on her heart, she wanted to be fine and to know that the people whom she lived with forgive her of what so ever things that she still keeping on her mind. She accepts her death with no sorry. It is like sleeping every night, we can't sleep when our loveones is in the place that we are not sure if they are safe or not, it is like death we can sleep when we think that all things we do that day is fine- no regret to find.
Enjoy the time electric bills, water bills, the lousy neigbhor, the talkative office mates and the things that makes us stressed the whole day. That is the worst thing that man does, enjoy the life and think all of this thing as curdles in your aim, success, heading etc. Take all things easy, not so serious. "life is like a box of chocolate, you didn't know what flavor you'll get"
Make it Worthy enjoying doesn't mean just for own sake share your happiness to other and make people laugh. We live not just our own, we live in a society thus we spend time with them.
Live like a kid i didn't mean you have to play on your backyard with dirt, catch bees, play with your old kitchen set toys or have fun with your besfriend in the lake. Nah, what i mean is that we have to spend time as a kid--if you look at your children, the kids on the playground you see no anger, no sign of the things that you hate when you reached your office holding a cup of coffee. Look for it and you'll see what i mean about this matter.
Understand everything sometimes the thing that we searched in life is just few inches away from our nose. We didn't see it because we can't understand it and recognize that it was the thing that we're looking for. In life, people search for something without the thinking about the subject that they're searching for. Understanding is the main and the most important thing that i know that would lead us on non-ending question about your purpose here on earth. If you understand everything, you understand what you want and what you need.
Look for yourself the main problem why he can't controll our own because we didn't know our own. It is the hardest thing to look for--i didn't mean just who you are, it includes what, why and all the prospect of identity both consciousness and unconsciousness --look for yourself from others, and reflect what they see on you and you will learn about your self.
Teach what you have learn anyway, we're all going to die at the end, stop taking secrets tell all the things you know to the youngster for them to search for the thing that you haven't found yet on your way to the other side of the bridge. It is the last thing that we can leave as we go along. the footstep of our legacy

This is just few things we need to know while living and looking to the end of the bridge not on your own feet. All of the questions you ask to yourself will surely be answered by your own--except if you're numb about your own answer, thinking that it is odd and terrible-- we must look at the end to know how important our life is, than flirting and looking for a girl to have sex with.
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Golden Rule

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Tuesday, December 3, 2013 | 3:08 PM

The worst case in human behavior is when people do something fun to others but in return, when their subjects make fun with turns wild worse than their subjects.
Who else wanted to be the center of fun--i mean, you are the reason why they're laughing in an insulting way--it is odd to be on that side when you feel bad about it. It is a simple way of insulting someone's identity that can sends them to the sense that they think that they can't blend on this kind of society. This is sometimes be recognized--as we know it--as bullying.
Many kid, children, teenagers or what so ever suffer in such case like this that sometimes sends them to their own death toll. In this simple 'fun' we can affect someone's emotion in thinking if the effects of our efforts turns in different sense to your subject.
The word RESPECT is the most ideal way to tell people that we have right, but this right are not limitless. We must think twice before doing such thing--be rational-- if this would hurt their feelings or not. If you say 'It is just for fun' yeah it is however, not all person sounds like you're, they didn't think like you.
The lack of our own understanding tends to make a irrational actions to other, the sense of INDIVIDUALISM always on the top of people.
Think before we do.
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This is the personal blogs site of Jay San Juan and that is me the administrator. All of the things that comes out of my mind whenever I sleeps, eat, walk or take my corny time in the toilet is all posted here in this precious blog. This is just a single point of view, a opinion of a simple guy in corner of the street while observing many other ass, jerk, proper looking guy, nerd, abnormal and normal people while they do their every day routine in making their life better or probably worse.
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Definition of surreal feelings

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Sunday, December 1, 2013 | 7:30 AM

As a human, i came through this experience of feeling something surreal to a beautiful girl in the class. It is the feeling that i can't understand, a mixed emotion of something coming out from the heavens. When you feel when she come close to you face, your heart beats louder than you head like the time stops for a while.
We experience all such things when we are still a kid, when we are still asking the oldies why the earth is oval like shape, why we pay taxes to our government, why your uncle is such an arse and why your crush is so appealing to you. We can't deny such thing, i can still remember the days when i feel such emotion that i thought it is what the oldies told me as a first love.
I came in the side where most of the people don't like to be. The place where we are the underdog and we are fighting a superpowers that can keep us stranded on the ground for long hours. I'm still lucky knowing that i was not the 'apple of her eyes' because i will not be able to discovers this thing on the corner of the room while drinking a cup of caramel frappuccino.
At first i can't understand what is love, all i know is love is something what i feel about on the opposite sex. However as i discover the secret on our logic subject, plus the fact that i'm taking some short subjects in Personality, i end up thinking about it.
I can't understand what is love, when i was a kid, i applied the Science of logic after watching Now you see me (Nice movie starring Jesse Eisenberg) once you can't define a certain words or phrases, obviously we can't understand it. But in the sense that i feel such emotion, mixed emotion on my mind, i keep on thinking about that feeling instead of thinking why i feel such thing. That is the problem in humans, we are easily distracted by the things that is not so important in our action or in that situation.
The conclusion is that, don't try to understand things without knowing it, because the more you know about that subject the easy it would be for you to understand.
Just remember, that real love comes like a thief, it comes unexpectedly, sometimes the people standing in front of us the one who is destined for us to love. Don't look for love because that is too epic, wait for it to pass and grab it when you know you can catch it.
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Honesty is the Best policy

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Saturday, November 30, 2013 | 12:37 PM

We always think about hitting the first spot, in the race, in the competition and even a small game. We always end up thinking to be in the row of glory. If you think that way- don't worry, you are still a normal human being- it is fine to feel such thing, to aim for the gold and grab the trophy, that is the human nature.
We come in the point that loosing is not part of the game anymore, that loosing means 'nothing to gain'. We become so feared in loosing that we do all things just to achieve our desire, our goals, our satisfaction to win over our opponents.
Accept the truth that we cheat sometimes, rarely, most of the time or almost always (for politicians only/ and for the husband who cheat) in our entire timeline, we can't deny that we didn't commit a single cheating move. However, that doesn't mean to say that you have to do cheating always like it is on your daily routine to complete your day, throw that thing out of your mind.
We're human and we got morals to consider and to call ourself trully a human being. That is the only difference that we can call our own as unique to other living things. But that can't be achieve without doing it and applying the morality to our ownself. Knowing is not enough, learning is just part of the process and Applying is the best conclusion. Be a man, be Human, Be Moral
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Anna Karenina- Leo Tolstoy

Written By Juan Dimasalang on Monday, October 14, 2013 | 1:15 PM


The sense of the novel realism is as accurate as we see today in our daily life. Besides from adultery and  infidelity, the elaboration of Romance takes over the entire thought. The realism genre of the book carries the reader to the point where he/she can understand like it was happening while reading the context slowly through Parts.
I've red dozens of modern printed novels and until i realize time to turn back into time, the time when reading is still widely used as entertainment like we did in playing Candy Crush or any kind of Application you can buy in iTunes. It is like one of the finest book that i red, older than this book, it carries the reader back into the same time the story was set.
As we look through the thought of the book itself, the sense of modernism is still there. The thing when you find someone better than your husband and felt a intensity touch of love and passion, in the turning point of Adultery. Yes, humans still commit such simple avoidable sin.
Well, the book is entirely awesome (for readers and i didn't recommend for people who seeks book with a certain genre on his mind, i don't want to disappoint you) and the thought are merge into dozens of scenes and parts. Good luck for reading :D

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OVERVIEW
Anna Karenina is the tragedy of married aristocrat and socialite Anna Karenina and her affair with the affluent Count Vronsky. The story starts when she arrives in the midst of a family broken up by her brother's unbridled womanizing—something that prefigures her own later situation, though with less tolerance for her by others.
A bachelor, Vronsky is eager to marry her if she would agree to leave her husband Karenin, a government official, but she is vulnerable to the pressures of Russian social norms, her own insecurities and Karenin's indecision. Although Vronsky and Anna go to Italy where they can be together, they have trouble making friends. Back in Russia, she is shunned, becoming further isolated and anxious, while Vronsky pursues his social life. Despite Vronsky's reassurances she grows increasingly possessive and paranoid about his imagined infidelity, fearing loss of control.
A parallel story within the novel is that of Konstantin Levin, a country landowner who desires to marry Kitty, sister to Dolly and sister-in-law to Anna's brother Oblonsky. Konstantin has to propose twice before Kitty accepts. The novel details Konstantin's difficulties managing his estate, his eventual marriage, and personal issues, until the birth of his first child.
      

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